I've been doing a lot of reading lately. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not a reader, but I have been drawn to writings of mindfulness lately, especially as it relates to work, and the below excerpt seems to capture why I haven't blogged in a long while.
"Take the whole teatime just to drink your tea. I started doing this in airports. Instead of reading, I sit there and look at everything, and appreciate it. Even if you don’t feel appreciation, just look. Feel what you feel; take an interest and be curious. Write less; don’t try to capture it all on paper. Sometimes writing, instead of being a fresh take, is like trying to catch something and nail it down. This capturing blinds us, and there’s no fresh outlook, no wide-open eyes, no curiosity. When we are not trying to capture anything we become like a child of illusion."
~ Pema Chodron
I do have so much to write, but I began to feel like I was taking away from simply living by trying to capture it. I suppose even Pema found time, and importance, in writing some of the time. So perhaps there is a balance.
So much had happened. I've changed jobs. BBZ is registered for kindergarten. I've fallen in love with running. LBZ is growing so fast. Nate and I are simply loving each other and trying to raise our boys well.
I think I'll be back again soon. I really did miss this little blogging place of mine.