Friday, May 29, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
And here we are in 2009...
It was a bit different this year for many reasons. We got seats this year which was a first...we usually got standing room only tickets, which I actually prefer. We couldn't talk to each other as much as when we are all standing in a group. Plus we didn't get the cool group picture like we have the last few years. The other difference is that we have a baby this year! This was his first game and what an exciting one it was! Just as we sat down, Pujhols hit a home run that knocked out the "I" in the Big Mac Land sign! The whole place went wild and we saw firwworks and everything! BBZ was a little scared by the loudness, but otherwise he did great considering the game started at the time he is usually in bed. Check out the pics!
A few tears as he fought a nap on the way to the stadium
He needed some comfort from his thumb when we first got there
He warmed up and seemed to have a great time!
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Such a cutie pie.
Playing in a hole with Grandpa Z that Great Grandpa Z dug at the farm.
He's such a handsome little man!
Monday, May 18, 2009
I grabbed my camera because his teachers had been trying to teach him to wave and I was so excited to actually see it for myself! Plus, I just bought myself a new digital camera and had it right next to me to catch moments such as this. It takes great pics...check this one out...you can even see the big drop of drool getting ready to fall off of his chin. This camera rocks!
So after dinner we were sitting on the couch and BBZ was on my lap. I was sitting next to Laura's husband, BBZ looked up at him, waved and said: "Buh Bye!" He spoke his second words! He has been babbling Da-da for a while now, but this was the first time he said something completely intentional. It was so cute!
On Sunday we were at our friend's son's 1st birthday party and I was telling my friend's mom (who is also my mom's very good childhood friend) what BBZ said the night before. I said to her that the next step is to get him to say it at the right time, like when we actually are going bye-bye. As we were leaving we walked through the back yard, past my friend's mom and as we were saying goodbye, BBZ waved and said: "Buh-Bye"! It was so exciting!
1. I am an awesome friend. I am a fantastic secret keeper and feel proud to still have many, many secrets in my head, which by the way will remain safely there until the end of time. I am loyal, empathetic, and would jump for any of my friends even if it has been a while since we spoke.
2. I am extremely handy. I love tinkering with things and can pretty much always figure out what is wrong with an electronic something-or-other, put anything together, and tell you which drill bit you should use for a given project. My cordless power drill, a gift from my in-laws, is one of my most prized possessions.
3. I am an awesome breast feeder. This may seem like a strange thing to be awesome at, but you would be surprised by how many people struggle with breastfeeding. I pump 18 ounces a day for BBZ in only 2 pumps. This is a crazy amount of milk for only 2 pumping sessions. I am finally comfortable feeding him just about anywhere and have definitely become a pro, if I do say so myself.
4. I am an awesome navigator. I have a street map in my car if I ever get lost, but I can almost always find my way wherever I need to go. I am less awesome at this when outside of my home city, but I'm still adequately awesome at reading maps on road trips.
5. I am awesome at encouraging people to be independent. I do this for a living, and I think I am pretty good at it. You know the saying if you give a person a fish they eat a meal, but teach a person to fish they eat for a lifetime? I try to operate this way. It's easy to do something for someone and send them on their way, but what have they learned? Nothing other than to depend on others to do for them. Empowering a person to learn to do for themselves is such a joy for me.
6. I am an awesome seamstress. I love to sew and have made things from purses to clothes to pillow cases to cloth diaper inserts. I do not know how to read patterns and usually sew something from looking at an example. I hope to one day have a sewing room where my machine can stay out all of the time rather than sporadically having it out on the dining room table, like now.
7. I am awesome at being BBZ's mom. I am very in tune with him and can often foresee what he will need and when. I love him more than I can put into words and believe being with N and creating BBZ was my purpose in life. I can't wait to watch him grow and already love his sensitive, intelligent, curious and happy little self.
I tag Emma Jewel, who is definitely a Queen of Awesome!!!
My other blogger friends have already been tagged, so there you go!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
This was taken of N and me while walking down the streets of Memphis. We met almost exactly 1 year before this photo was taken and were celebrating our one year anniversary by seeing Widespread Panic at the venue in Memphis. We always stayed within walking distance of Beale Street, so this is us, heading to a bar. I love this photo. Memphis has been our place since we met in 2002. We have gone back to see Panic every year except last year. I guess a lot of things change when you get married and have a baby. We planned to go to Memphis in May, but the bands weren't really worth the money and the drive.
I think Memphis will always be our place. I'm sure we will take lots of vacations there, and maybe even see Graceland some day!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
If you asked the me from 5 years ago if I thought I would ever give up 1 day of work each week to be at home with my baby, I know the answer would have been no. Another thing this friend confided in me was that my blog can come across as judgemental. He will probably not be happy about my writing about this, but I have come to accept that while I began this blog as a way to keep in touch with family, it has also become a place where I can just put it all out there. A place to think (or type) out loud and try to organize my thoughts and work through personal struggles. I guess I didn't really think about the way the things I say here would be perceived.
People are judgemental. People pass judgements. I believe it is a natural human response that in history has been a survival technique, but in our modern times has turned into prejudice, bias, and driven wedges between races, groups and sometimes friends. Not being judgemental, to me, is almost impossible. It's recognizing this and deciding what to do about it that makes the difference. I think this becomes even more in the forefront when people have children. Comments about people's children are taken very personally, even if the commenter didn't mean it personally. My very good real-life friend and fellow blogger Laura and I were talking on the phone a few weeks ago about breast pumps. She is pregnant and said she does not want to use a second-hand breast pump because she read that bacteria can get into the motor. I use a second-hand breast pump and have since BBZ was born, does this mean I am not as good of a mom because I chose to buy a second-hand breast pump?
Of course not.
But as a mom, I constantly question myself. Is this ok, is that ok, this mom does this and this mom does that, should I do this, should I do that. It is often confusing and never ending and I don't think there is an answer. But I feel the need to say that while voicing the way I decide to do things and the things that have worked out for me as a mother and for our family, I choose not pass judgements on how others decide to raise their children or their families. Even if I compare myself to other moms, I do not pretend to know what that mom goes through, or why she decides one thing while I may decide another. I cannot know what a person thinks, or feels, or know that my way is better or their way is worse. I do what works for me, and at times feel lucky just to get by!
I think about other countries who are not as technologically advanced as America. Americans think our way of life with television and technology is so much better, we try to make everyone realize that and conform to our way of living. Well guess what? People living all over the world do things differently and that doesn't necessarily make our way the right way, or our way any better. I hope that those who read my blog understand what I am saying, and I really do apologize if anyone misunderstood what I have written. I admit that when Laura and I were talking, I wondered if I am not as responsible as her by using this second-hand pump, but that was my own perception and I take responsibility for it. I know Laura was not insinuating something about me as a mom. I know she was talking with me, her best friend, about something she was trying to decide about what she as a mom is going to do. I know her and trust her and know that while she looks at me as a mom and might agree with some of the things I do, she is her own person and will do what works for her and her family. And quite honestly, that has nothing to do with me. Just as what I write in this blog has nothing to do with other moms or the readers. It is my journey filled with struggles and triumphs and those who read are along for the ride. I cannot take responsibility for how it is perceived, although I do care.
I feel better getting that off of my chest. On to other news, I had a great time this weekend at the concerts! I will say though that I had a lot more fun on Friday than I did on Saturday. I think I am just over getting drunk. It is just not that fun for me anymore. The idea sounded good, but in actuality, I would have preferred to come home to my baby and have him here with me this morning. I woke up at 6am anyway! I appreciate the time my hubby and I had together so much. This weekend rekindled something for us and we talked about things we really needed to talk about. Overall, it was a great weekend. I am really looking forward to my first mother's day. BBZ and I will be reunited at N's mom's house this morning and I cannot wait to see him. I think about his little smile and his sweet smell and so look forward to holding and cuddling with him. Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there! I wish peace for you as you deal with your own struggles as moms and while I know I can't get it all right, I hope to get as close as I can.