Wednesday, April 29, 2009
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
The blue octopus helped too! I figured BBZ, or maybe I, was getting sick of avocados and sweet potatoes. I bought some carrots from Whole Foods and cooked 'em up. BBZ loved them! He's been eating nothing else since Sunday evening, and well, this morning it really showed...in his diaper! This was the orangest poop I have ever seen! It was like I dumped the orange carrots right in there. Maybe this was BBZ's way of really showing his orange support for Stellan!
So we have certainly been enjoying ourselves (I mean resting and trying to feel better) on our day off today. It is in the 70s and sunny and an absolutely perfect day! Look how cute he is in his little shorts! Meme bought him lots of summer clothes when they came in town for Easter, and he finally gets to wear them! Maybe we will even find some time today to rest and recover while lying in the sun in the back yard!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I have this underlying feeling that something has to change. I cannot keep on this way. What if it were him who was sick? What if this time I have with him is so precious and I am wasting it spending 5 days a week at work? But I want to work. I really do enjoy my job. Where is this all coming from? Why was I fine for 3 whole months and now I am struggling with working and daycare? I guess it's my attention to Stellan that is stirring this up, or maybe it's because there are woman at work who have chosen to go to part time since having their babies. That was something I considered when I first came back, but I was happy to be back full-time. I feel like being a brat and saying, it's just not fair! But I don't even know that I want what they have. I guess maybe I want more time. Maybe an 8 day work week. 5 days of work and 3 days with my baby. Can we squeeze in one more day in the week? Will that really throw off the calendar that much? I wonder who I would talk to about that...hmm.
Whatever is going on, I have this feeling that something has got to change, but what? I've taken on a new project at work, maybe this will be enough of a change to make a difference...I guess we'll see. To add to all of this, I have been sick for about 2 weeks now. You have seen my schedule, I don't have time to be sick! No seriously, I really don't have time. I tried to schedule an appointment with my regular doc last week and we couldn't find a day and time that I could squeeze in (to my schedule). So I went to the Walgreen's clinic last Wednesday. The nurse practitioner was great, but she put me on Amoxicillin, which to date has not worked AT ALL! I left work early yesterday just to have some time to sit on the couch before picking up BBZ, and I have been on antibiotics for a week! I called my regular doc yesterday and am seeing him this afternoon. Hopefully it won't be a waste of money. I'd hate for him to tell me to wait out the 10 days on Amoxicillin before doing anything else. Who knows. Hopefully I will have some relief!
Umm, as soon as I finished typing that sentence, my phone rang and it was BBZ's teacher telling me he has something going on with his eye and I had to pick him up. Yes, I was blogging at work, but I promise it was the very first time (OK except for the earlier blog, but that really was the first time, and look how short it was!) I have never blogged at work 1. because I am too busy, and 2. I really think it's wrong to waste work time that way. But the way I have been feeling about working and being a mom and being torn about where to go from here, I HAD to get it out of my head, because I couldn't concentrate on work anyway. So anyway, I cancelled my doctor's appointment and took BBZ to his. They can't tell if it is pink eye because they "would have to do an eye swab with every kid" to determine that. Ok, so why they don't do that I don't know, so they treat every eye issue with an antibiotic eye drop that does not get absorbed into the system and effect the immune system at all...apparently. So I dropped off the prescription and brought the sick little guy home. N called me back at this point and I filled him in on what the doc said. He works so hard, it's pretty much impossible for him to drop everything like I did, so his help today was unfortunately not an option. He was able to pick up the prescription at Walgreen's on his way home so we didn't have to leave the house. That was a big help. So in the midst of this, the Walgreen's nurse called to do a follow-up. She asked if I was feeling better and I said no. She asked if I wanted to have her call in a Z-PAC and I said yes! Please! She was going to call it into the same Walgreen's N was going to so it would be perfect, right? Actually no, as we were hanging up I said "the Z-PAC is OK while breastfeeding, right?" She said hmm, let me check. Well my OB nurse called in a Z-PAC when BBZ was 3-4 days old because that was the last time I had a sinus infection and it was no problem with nursing. Granted I was also taking pain killers at the time, but whatever. So she came back to the phone and said no, it's not OK while breastfeeding and referred me to my doctor.
So here I am, right where I started. Sick and absolutely no time to go to the doctor. I do get to stay home tomorrow, but it's not like I am going to rest. But at least I get to sit at home and snuggle with my little boy all day long. He was very snuggly tonight and I'm taking all the snuggles I can get! To you moms out there, any suggestions on getting eye drops in a 7 month old baby's eyes? This has already proven to be a huge challenge... One more thing (maybe just one) I cannot smell or taste anything. Seriously. ANYTHING. I asked N the other day if we as humans didn't have taste buds, would we ever eat anything that wasn't good for us. I, myself, would be on a diet of field greens and brussel sprouts because it seems silly to eat anything that isn't good for you if you can't enjoy it anyway. I have had a craving for something sweet for 2 weeks and cannot satisfy it because I can't taste anything. The smell thing sucks too. This may not make sense, but it sucks not being able to smell when BBZ poops because I don't know ahead of time how prepared I need to be when going in for a diaper change. Do I need 1 wipe or 3? Do I need to have a change of clothes on hand? This morning I knew he pooped only because I caught the red face while he was hanging out in his exersaucer. This is important because I would hate to take him to daycare with something ripe in his diaper. So, those are 2 symptoms I am looking forward to losing quickly. Those and the ridiculous sinus pressure and pain. Oh well, at least I am also too busy to be too bothered by it. Maybe the day off will be good for me too. At least I will get all those snuggles I was talking about.