Well, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I woke up Sunday morning and told N that I was really nervous about having to leave BBZ Monday. I knew I would be fine walking into the place, I'd be fine talking to the teachers, I'd be fine getting him all settled, but what I worried about was the minute I had to actually turn around and walk out of the door. I didn't know if I would be able to do it. N asked if I wanted him to come with me. What a great idea! N's schedule is so crazy I know I will usually pick BBZ up and drop him off, so it didn't occur to me that I don't have to do this by myself. He went with me and when we both walked out together it felt less like I was abandoning him and more like we finally got to this point that we had been planning for almost a full year. I did cry when I got to the car. Not because I was worried about his care, but because I know that this is how our life will be now and pretty much forever. Every work day from now on I will have to take him somewhere and be away from him, and that will most likely never change. For those first 10 minutes, I was really sad about that fact. It's the cost of being a working mom, I guess. But this is what is best for our family, and it will just continue to get better.
As far as his day at school, it was really great. He ate well and took the bottle with no trouble. His teachers said that he loved sitting back and watching the other kids, and he loved to lay on the floor and laugh and giggle. He was cracking up about something when I got there to pick him up! He had some trouble with naps, but he has never been a good daytime napper (just like his mommy). Hopefully he will get into a decent schedule while there. Overall it was a very successful first day! I'm looking forward to how he will do tomorrow!
