I've been doing a lot of reading lately. Anyone who knows me
knows that I'm not a reader, but I have been drawn to writings of mindfulness
lately, especially as it relates to work, and the below excerpt seems to
capture why I haven't blogged in a long while.
"Take the whole teatime just to drink your tea. I
started doing this in airports. Instead of reading, I sit there and look at
everything, and appreciate it. Even if you don’t feel appreciation, just look.
Feel what you feel; take an interest and be curious. Write less; don’t try to
capture it all on paper. Sometimes writing, instead of being a fresh take, is
like trying to catch something and nail it down. This capturing blinds us, and
there’s no fresh outlook, no wide-open eyes, no curiosity. When we are not
trying to capture anything we become like a child of illusion."
~ Pema Chodron
I do have so much to write, but I began to feel like I was
taking away from simply living by trying to capture it. I suppose even Pema
found time, and importance, in writing some of the time. So perhaps there is a
balance.
So much had happened. I've changed jobs. BBZ is registered
for kindergarten. I've fallen in love with running. LBZ is growing so fast.
Nate and I are simply loving each other and trying to raise our boys well.
I think I'll be back again soon. I really did miss this
little blogging place of mine.